Don't wanna be alone.

Don't wanna be alone.Don't throw me away! I am not a toy, i made of flesh and blood, a human being. Embedded with rich emotions. Don't look away from me, don't walk away, is simply that i am more to kind of quiet and don't wanna be in the spotlight at times, i admit that sometimes, i like to attract people's attention, but perhaps that is one way of people to let them aware of my existence.

I want to approach and talk to you, but my fear is rejecting and restricting my moves. I don't wanna crop myself within a small range of friends, i wanted to know more people, get to be in the crowd is a wonderful feeling, but well...sometimes, i prefer to be alone, and i simply don't know why. These few weeks since starting of the school, i been walking alone back home at most time. But, perhaps...i am used to walking alone, listening to my J rock's songs, enjoying the sunny weather or the wet/cooling weather.

"Raining is when i am crying, bright sunny day is when i am happy"(quoted by Hiro-san, Koizora-Sky of Love) you really almost made mi burst to tears in the cinema. That's a really a fine and sweet touching movie, which is also really a sad one. Hmm, i guess that's true love. Really worth to watch this movie in cinema. Hmm, lonely turned to sadness and then back round, trying hard to forget, woah...love is such a funny thing.

Why do you walk so slow and meantime, enjoying ? NAZE ? To me, walking slow help me to refresh alot of my fun times, sometimes, listening to songs make me think too. Thinking is an important process bah, hmm...

Human were the most weird creatures that ever lived in this world. They can speak in different languages, having different actions and cultures. How actually their character developed? From friends, family and etc;, arh arh, that's it...Some people like to hide their real side, some like to show their good and prevent to show their weaknesses, some are simply naive and natural. Wonderful to living in these colorful world of lies and truth.

You do not need to hide, you do not fear, you are just as same as everyone in this world. Speak up more, watch your actions, put yourself in the others shoes and think. Perhaps these is some ways for better communication. Well, what can i say...some people are just as stubborn as a cow, some are like charmelon, some even held flames that will burn you.

Don't wanna be alone...seriously, the true colors of people lies in the fate of your hand, whether which type of people you wanna be is your choice. Of course, people whom have no dreams nor ambition, either they are lost and don't know what they want in life. I just completed watching 'Honey and Clover' a Japanese drama. This drama is a short one, 11 episodes but showed the real side of life.

Quoted from the show - The game machine which catches teddy bears/etc;...the thing you want is just in front of you, but you just cannot get it. Which really make sense, life is sometimes similar to this too...the girl you want is just in front, but you simply cannot get her heart. Also...you cannot face the fact you don't know what you want in life, is simply escaping. You just keep escaping, but truth is that dreams and ambitions developed when you start to like something or want to be something.

Today, i read some of my friend's blogs, hmm. They are really fun people, and emotions-rich too. Blars...that's human. Anyway, going to end this post soon, will be classified under 'the classics', no worries. Lols.

Shall summarizes my day here bah...
PP's project scope approved. -
OOP UT01 ended, but...not going to get good grade. -
xxxholic ep21 watched. -
Ouran High School Club ep01 watched. -

That's all bah...sorry for the long long post. Hahas. Good night else, Oyasumi yo!

THE END.
29.04.08.

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